During my rather short sojourn in hiatus, I have been pondering the difficulties of blogging. I was on the point of giving up because it seemed to be getting too serious and I was developing paranoia. It all started as a bit of fun, pointing out some of the absurdities of modern life, chatting with friends both real and virtual, doing what I like most - communicating with people. I've had some delightful encounters with people here and when visiting other blogs but I've also met a few 'certainty wallahs' and I found that quite a bruising experience.
I enjoy meeting people who have different views and different experience of life from mine. It would be boring to communicate only with those who agree with me, it would also be difficult to find anyone who fits the bill because I like to think that my mind is open enough to new information and ideas for my views to be constantly developing. The recent difficulty has been in coming up against one or two individuals who are inflexible in their beliefs and who want to impose their views on others. Not only do they not listen to another view, they wrongly attribute beliefs and attitudes to other people e.g. when I protested against an accusation of being 'anti-American' I was told that I was 'unconsciously' anti-American. How does one argue with that? I was also accused of 'deconstructionist BS' - I don't even understand that one!
It has been interesting to read the posts of some of the people who hold fixed opinions. It strikes me that their lives must be quite limited; whatever discussion they enter is quickly steered towards their political or religious opinions. It also occurs to me that they must live in a constant state of fear; when you are convinced that you are right you need to defend that certainty against all opposition. For me, the only certainty in life is death and accepting that opens the mind to exciting and unlimited possibilities.
A couple of years ago, I came across David Jenkins' The Calling of a Cuckoo - not just an autobiography; that is where I found the description of the 'certainty wallahs.' It is a book that expounds the wisdom of uncertainty and I recommend it to everyone who has, or aspires to having, an open mind. A taster quote for "the assertively certain believers - ... relax, believe a little less and collaborate a good deal more."
I've decided not to be intimidated off my blog. I will continue to share my trivial and absurd observations with anyone who cares to read them. I've made lots of chocolate cake and hope someone will drop by to eat it.